gwax's rumblings

I went back and looked over some of my blog entries and I couldn’t help but think that I’m rather imper­sonal in all of them. This got me to think­ing about this whole blog thing and I don’t really know which way I want to take things.

There have been a few entries in which I related things that weren’t wholely imper­sonal and I remem­ber feel­ing a lit­tle appre­hen­sive after hav­ing posted them. My appre­hen­sion must stem from the same damned place that my aver­sion to say­ing any­thing about how I feel to any­one. I know that some part of it is a fierce desire to do absolutely every­thing on my own, which is, itself, a com­bi­na­tion of a desire for inde­pen­dance and not want­ing to impose on any­one else.

Methinks, from a cathar­tic and self-improving stand­point, that my desire not to con­tinue and pub­lish this entry is pretty indica­tive of why I really should fin­ish it. Perhaps I should use that as my sort of divin­ing rod of blog; the less I want to say some­thing the bet­ter it is that I say it. Funny con­cept, that would be, lis­ten to your­self and then do the oppo­site of what­ever you decide. Funny, yet some­how log­i­cal when you know that your par­tic­u­lar deci­sions on a mat­ter are almost invari­able the wrong ones.

Funny that all this should be sparked by see­ing some­body else com­plain­ing about being lonely on their blog. Just got me think­ing, what’s the point in keep­ing a per­sonal jour­nal if I’m not going to say any­thing per­sonal; it’s not like the events of my life are inter­est­ing enough, on their own, to jus­tify peo­ple read­ing about them.

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